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Fat cat's small black pigment     
    Benjamin sits during " going around" in the office of magazine office, both hands stare at that colored gift box according to the desk. The office in early morning seems incomparably spacious, and it towers in the middle of the desk, seem old and fill and sink, towering and incomparable. There is no sunshine outside the window. Is it the illusion? The last stakes can't be fixed. There seem have one as blue Zhyuan forest of end, sky see clearly. Like each time after the remaining years, world seem from true and far always.     
    It is the Christmas eve today, meaningless for last stakes. All meanings of life, " survive " And " work " . The last stakes is as before, go out early in the morning, get to the magazine office on foot, he is always the first one to arrive. He turns off the siren on the exit, it makes a cup of hot coffee for oneself to come into the kitchen, take out the newspaper binder of the morning on the same day in the armpit from the mailbox, move towards one's own desk calmly. This should be still a dull morning, if that gift box has appeared.     
    See this piece wrap up bizarre entity that stand up, last stakes think which Christmas present that colleague drop it is with the five colours thin paper at the first sight, have misplaced. He has not expected at all addressees will be oneself. Since a lot of years, after divorcing former wife from the last stakes in fact, he has not received such a Christmas gift again. The box covers and sews the little card of a recycled writing paper, is writing the name of the last stakes above, have not signed. Then, who sent off? This thing is entrenched on desk of the last stakes like this, the silk ribbon pitched is breathed out and laughed foolishly, the a face with innocent looks seems to be saying: "It was not I that did. "     
    The gift box is packed very carefully and neatly, semitransparent chromatics paper, takes a kind of different tone of Forth Five-Year Plan Period, it is not that kind of bargain sold in the supermarket, the trace that there are nails to nip the mark in the hemmed place, the belt knot of golden silk fabric, match so as to quite have a grade too, seem to come from woman's hands. The last stakes has only encountered a woman in all one's life, is small Lip river. But if last stakes think, last stakes will certainly not small Lip river.     
    Desk at graduation of pieces of small book according to,last uniform, caps in good taste the getting more aslant a little. The photo that another father and son fished on the south island of New Zealand, in the hands of the small book is a long brown Flathead. But there is no photo of little Lip river. Small Lip river and only, former wife of the last stakes, mother of the small book, with the exception of this, the last stakes has already had nothing to do with small Lip river. Small book of photo smile a little shily, have a few it like Ian. It unexpectedded that the last stakes can do by myself to remember Ian on this morning suddenly, just as rushed open a door not opened for a long time suddenly, make he himself shocked. May be old, people are old and easy to begin to recall, no matter how deep those remember and bury. The last stakes stretches out the finger and polishes the glass of the looks shelf subconsciously, in fact the glass is very clean, it is disheartened that there is no any. " the looks shelf is a little old, " The last stakes thinks, " must change one during New Year. "     

 Composition of high school (1)    
Poem theme of period of the Renaissance --Death  
In Elizabeth times, only people are usually the period known as Renaissance, passion of artist strengthen greatly, the artist of period, could begin they art, new student of style and explore again. Though the poem of this period came into the new realm, however, the theme kept intact. Among them the most common theme is: Time is passing quickly, the death is unavoidable. Though this mediocre idea is very depressing, however, the poems of all sorts of different styles and angle of the behavior give different eras elegance to this theme.  
Renaissance early poet bits of Rucker the mode of poem begin his poem with " eyes to attract me " often, he painful and sorry intonation cause reader conscientious sympathy always. It it seemses to be once "  The golden curly hair giving out light "  ,Have turned into at one time " the particle of dust, there is no consciousness " ,The life no longer has any meaning. Bits of Rucker great poet in Italy, on " love, lose also ", have expressed a gentleman's emotion under this kind of agony. Though he has never got love of the young girl beautiful, her appearance has been already enough. However, the passing of her, makes him unable to write out the song of praise of the love again, because he has " already finished writing " ,Obviously, what such mood is brought to readers is: The unexpected death may take place at any time, but what it is left to person who survives is the pain that will never disappear. No doubt, one bit of Rucker's poems with him has transmitted his impression of this kind of experience. This kind of tactics has opened up the road to use this theme for the latecomer.  
After bits of Rucker, have two writer use different literary style expression similar death theme: The death is harmless loving.  
In Shakespeare's sonnet No. 55, because the harmonious metre in verse which he composed, make the theme of the poem etched the memory that is planted into common people deeply for classics. He sings in this sonnet, death and " slovenly era " Can't seize she nobly quality, than " marble " it With " monument gilded "  Stronger. Shakespeare's poem and theme "  All enjoy the space in descendants' eyes all ages "   . Undoubtedly, he believes his poem compares with the theme the two of death and era are stronger.  
Back-end another writer John and Milton wrote a poem with the same idea in that era, but entrust to totally different themes. Making people bewitched and noticeable of him is because the prototype of role of his works is Shakespeare. " talk about Shakespeare " (On Shakespeare) Profess, a " point to the star's Pyramid " It is only the his name one "  Weak witness "  ,Until verse of him already "  Have set up the eternal monument for he himself "  . He is explaining this view constantly, his intonation that is full of revering shows his respect deep to Shakespeare. Should emphasize again, Renaissance poem of period establish characters than any thing effective idea, including death.  
Finally, there are two poets through different annotating and translating and expressing the same theme in that period: The emotion does not disappear with death, i.e. the love, with losing the sweetheart or can't getting the love. In bit of Rucker's sonnet, a young girl has not accepted the poet's love. Wyatt and Howard, use their own tactics, has written out their poem, echo this love poet of Italy, in Wyatt's sonnet, he thinks his love must " follow her   No matter grow and die "  ,Change all one's life that however, the poem middleman is before dying, can know " is good " . In his thought, everything can lose, the transient life is unable to compare with his love to Chongqing, cross because the life just plunders, but love and exist forever.  
Though Howard's sonnet is basically the same, however, he has used the slightly different tactics. For example, his word is more stiff and more ear-piercing, " losing of the purpose " of forcing readers to love in reality ,The ones that introduce and have mixed feelings "  The love is with the death in order to end "  Reality.  
No matter what different tactics they have used, two poets have both expressed the same theme and meaning. Their different styles are to add different flavors for the similar body of poem.  
Very lucky, the Renaissance period is the eras of the thought and action. These embryonic artists have left their new discovery and new thought for us.  
The continuity influenced as them, a special field of literature - -" death "  Developed out, become the theme of a lot of poets and dramatists works. It is always total to pass the forest forest"  The death " Works, they make this theme give play to meaningful glamour, entrust to the novel feeling.  

Having passed for several days, the girl who sings the folk song returns the book to me. I give her the money used to buy the duck, she has charged three yuan symbolically. Whether she ask me there are books, I say with a smile that so poor that only there are books left, she wants to see that must teach me how to sing the folk song. a￥  
She hesitates for a moment, saying can write the lyrics to me, only need sing according to tune. I think this method is so good as to agree to, I fetch several books when went home for her. She guarantees to give the lyrics to me the next day constantly cheerfully. Unless ask her I what name is, hesitate she the somes,quite would rather tell by I, her name is Yang Yu. a￥  
The next day, Yang Yu would come over to already copy lyrics well to me. That is several pieces of very coarse yellow paper, offer sacrifices to that kind making the paper money while sweeping a grave. The writing brush word on the paper is careful and neat, graceful. I thought why clear Yang Yu was unwilling to teach the reason why I sang the folk song at last. That would rather say than say it is also a folk song it is a love song. Brother's sister everywhere on the paper, the feeling loves, to be more precise it is the colloquial speech love letter rhyming very much. Among them "  Look at the feeling sister "  Have a few artistic conceptions very much: 18 younger sister pigtail oh been the long /take pigtail last my darling /my darling stone heart /see it is flurried for pigtail to have palpitation. That " looks forward to in four seasons " There is a sophisticated appeal too: a￥  
Turn on by peach blossom on the spring /wish people not to be had younger sister under tree /fall full oh / see elder brother not entered peach blossom village come one after another /a￥ lotus flower summer it is the white for pools full /younger sister water adopt lotus flower /both hands It is it fickle in love to quarry have no intention oh /two holes last villages light / autumn such as a￥ sweet-scented osmanthus the fragrant all sides /have fermented glutinous rice / a jar of wines fines lasted water oh younger sister with flower /elder brother smell wine the fragrant /at winter a￥ It come float snow flake /embroider cold night such as younger sister small bag / small bag last a hundred or so pieces oh /every year see little each /finish watching behind all lyrics a￥ I, moan several sections according to tune, not very satisfied feel very interesting. Then draw the wooden dipper in accordance with the calabash, try to write a few words. a￥ I see YuShi Yang again in bank of the river, on to turn on broken gong throat sing towards her: Then day noon this water in /a people of boats onlies beat time to a song with the feet walk /water the clear and getting more similar oh always /mark song such as wind /a￥ at water been in today /song the long like aeolian bell / that Elder brother kindhearted and cold oh / why give spring breeze / a￥ Yang YuZhu stand the bow, sail, come on slowly younger sister, she sings that only hear: It want play by sister / lotus little elder brother how counterpart calabash mark /water grow oh /pieces of every ones enervated the wandering /more fast, more accurate a￥ Yu Yang extempore, make me unable to think out the lyrics dealt with for the moment, can only look at her admiring the clothes. She smiles and looks at me brimmingly after debarking, says I study really fast. My modesty of a￥ is said to be far short of what is more expected than she, only the innermost thoughts and feelings: Is it difficult that what there is this? So long as want to write, write out one hundred 80 out of question. a￥ Yang Yu asked for lyrics just now from me, I spoke and did not bring. I ask how she has written, she is red steeply. She says restrainedly the lyrics should vary with each individual, I should not sing to her folk song just now. I ask why, she say that sings for person liking it in that kind of folk song. a￥ getting too shy in I, explain, practise pens, ask her not to mind. Yang Yu has smiled, extremely reluctantly. She say know you urban resident does not say rule don't, look down upon rural people. a￥ I have scanty experience of life at that time, did things and seldom considered the consequence, worldly wisdom has never been placed on in the heart. This kind of state should not sometimes stop until mother died of illness. Though I recognize rain Yang words very glad, talk in professional jargon with her still. She is perfunctory says want to feed to ducks after a few words, leaves hurriedly. When she returned the book to me again, I just wanted to speak, she said that there is a thing, went on board and galloped at all speed to leave. We for some time often meet a￥but seldom speak. I call her each time, she is left by an excuse. I see her sit on the ship pondering in silence alone sometimes, can be regarded as greeting to only smile while passing in front of me. I see her sit on the turf in the island reading alone while having, sing several folk songs or lie on the turf looking up at the sky once in a while, very long. Perhaps my praise received of a￥, taking good care of too much, has spoilt and spoilt. So cold and detached attitude that rain ignore Yang, make I dignified damaged feeling. So, I am not extremely comfortable when seeing her in the heart each time, can't help scolding secretly: Bumpkin! There is anything amazing. Has even scolded several sentences of dirty word, in order to ask the psychology to be balanced.    
Pain that the frustration feels sad  Like helping each other each other interdynamically  

Since HTML clipboardCredit Card Terminal Point of Sale the novel is right "  The gifted scholar and beautiful woman "  The irony of the mode, has publicized " the beautiful woman " " feeling " of one ,Must waver "  The gifted scholar " Inherent image. In the novel, Meng AnRen this " gifted scholar " ,Do not occupy the key status narrated, it is not the focus that women pay close attention to. He is only a vulgar and vulgar man, though Pu Songling for his face of foot (otherwise bring disgrace to 11 mothers, do not show the inside back cover mother's eyesight either)  ,It is that " the appearance is beautiful and big " ," whether writing brush garden " ,But its quality can quite be suspected. Seal with Fan revisiting the old haunt, until it meet, he " see two gaudy, belong to the meditation of wading sometimes " ,Inside back cover mother enter door just, he " whether heavy and happy, too busy, sift, embrace hurriedly" ,Seal, have, declare " concubine mao satisfy, Cao QiuSheng " at once . Inside back cover mother help marriage of him, but 11 mothers there emerged a rotten idea, he has shone and made, although its psychology of the not straight book of the novel, undoubtedly fit in exactly with one's wishes. Compared with the inside back cover mother devising strategies at the headquarters, helping others to completion of a worthy goal, his image is much more of wretched appearance. As for 11 mothers Fan's father, shortsighted, false and obstinate, more insufficient theory. The third man in the novel, 11 mothers' brother, only from one of the inside back cover mother's eyes mid point, can find out it is an urgent lecher. Though Pu Songling never sends out" the woman is water, the man is the mud " Such a shocking theory, but wipe one men to pour in this one, it is enough to make us surprised too.  
The novel the tip of a writing brush sharp, seem difficult to accept today, why does little anyone find this point? Just as beginning of this text say, it is hidden in one and another " sheath " that we know very well by the ingenious one In,it regard by 11 mother and love patron saint of AnRen Meng Fan as inside back cover mother; It extols men and women's freedom of marriage, objects to well-matched in social and economic status snobbish idea, wait a moment. Can both be welcomed with today at that time.  
Then, is not men and women's feeling mankind's natural and beautiful emotion? Is not it a kind of sex deviation the same sex love? Where is the meaning of this? It is not the normality that the same sex loves truly, but under the special environment, it not merely can be understood and sympathized with, even can be extolled. The depression that Chinese women suffer is wrecked, the head, intensity of time are strong, do not have its human relations generation. Except women obtain as mother pitiful one point respect '  There is " to son after the death of husband " Say)  ,Treatment her life and even life that her father, her husband can be arbitrary. They have no personality: Either the toy, or the idol; Their talent makes morality suspected, their emotion is enabled loyal and steadfastly and suspected, even if degenerate sign of their desire, even they are also suspected that it is intelligent to mix. The man likes them for being in delicate health, does not have judgment at all - -Except can commit suicide by jumping into well, go on a hunger strike, hang oneself to reveal without the least hesitation "  Strong" . It is not merely on physique that this is fettered, more spiritual, let Ann bear and submit to, even regard sacrifice of priceless value as the only road with complete personality consciously. Mould and pursue happy women in the novel opera boldly according to several with great difficulty, will hush up a scandal by succeeding in a government examination, following the order to get married, i.e., it is not still but the emotion but utility to be approved.  
Finally have some such women, they are being locked " disappearing can want " Environmental in - -Du Li's mother will be reprimanded if Du Li's mother plays in the own garden - -Let them produce the query to one's own situation with the intelligence bright, youthful rhythm has been sprouted excitedly and yearning for by them again. When they can't obtain normal emotion communication, what produced was loved between the persons who suffer commiserate with each other, such as officer's medicine officer such as the woman protagonist of this one of lotus root in " Dream of the Red Chamber ", not merely make people sympathize with, even a kind of amazing resistance and subversion. Their no longer unconditional legal domination person of approval, has got rid of the chains of morals, meet respect of the emotion. They have proved the self- existence, have shown the inherent most sincere and most beautiful side in the human nature. You can't say they are immoral, really an immoral one is not to treat woman as the society that people saw. Pu Songling dares to write out their voice as a member of society of man right, the ones that publicize them "  The feeling " ,So valuable.  
However, such a " feeling " Must not be held by generation. 11 mothers Fan is more innocent, so seem warm, excited and having nothing to fear, the inside back cover mother is but in the deep heart conflict all the time. The contacts between her and model are very prudent all the time: " the concubine comes must look on as the secret to give repeated exhortations repeatedly. Make to the persons who make trouble of speech, spread embroidered stories and malicious gossip, can't bear receiving. " ; " see people come and hide and insert in the Fan s among curtains " . (This has been disproofed too: If general friendship, needn't worried slander fear and laugh at so at all) ,All accidents are regarded as the ill omen or prewarning by her. She great pain marriage to help Fan whether she ponder over careful behavior too. Sink into as her Meng fit kindness, her premonition becomes reality, can only deeply regret and accompany each other finally, leave away absolutely. The infinitely resourceful fox woman can not escape this misfortune either, this is regarded as the self- punishment in her subconscious, it is the tragedy which Pu Songling have to arrange that winds up too. Strength of common customs too getting strong, he himself can incorrect like this guilty of heterodoxy trip say and deny either, sorry, sympathize with. The romantic writer have to bow to reality either. But by the look of novel structure, ending lingering sound curl upwards, make people chase remote, better than one vulgar to transfer in happy reunion in two woman far.      

" inside back cover mother "  
" inside HTML clipboardCredit Card Terminal Point of Sale back cover mother " seems to lack originality: Beautiful young girl, snobbish father, poverty but talented intellectual scholar, infinitely resourceful fox woman; Invite privately, refuse the wedding, wake up from death, become family independents at last, husband's your wife's honour. Seem Tang legend " Zhang Yan awarded " "  Fail to see highland Wei a high official "  The loud in I,like by " mother admire to Du Li there aren't color " " tree peony pavilion " also Companion volume,it is ancient for shade to escort government to be and in being the " unparalleled to spread " righteous man   However, under this pile of hodgepodge, a hidden one is a few theme displayed: Women's same sex loves.  
People like regarding the opposite sex as "  Normal " Emotion. " normal " ," abnormal " . Divide disconnected sleeve of the peach into, see all historical books; Unofficial history novel, polish more particularly. But male homosexuality is often that the power to the lowly one of the person who occupies high position reflects at that time, it is the interspersing and supplementing of its game of sex. Emperor Wu Di of the Han Dynasty Yan, Li YanNian in Korea S. of year of history, in the novel if Chinese and Western door of " the Golden Lotus " is celebrated drawing virginly, or " Dream of the Red Chamber " Xue curl "  Long Yang's excitement "  ,It is all like this. Women's same sex loves certainly will exist, but sink into oblivion, why? In the man right society, men regard women as the toy, regard as the weak living beings that depend on them and have, they do not acknowledge at all women's orientation does not point to them to point to the one's own one. So they have moulded the strong daughter and enshrined and worshipped it in the ancestral hall, a knife cuts " the wanton woman " off Head leave out bold and assuredly for law court, never believe by " beautiful woman " Unexpectedly yes unwilling to admire "  The sage " Or " gifted scholar "  When. So no matter the unofficial history of national history, to Mo Shen of this forbidden word. Therefore, how sharp is this theme (though Pu Songling may not realize this) . This is a strong impact of the ethics order. The others " love " The works recommend marrying the partner of one's own choice, resisting the theme of parents' life, the destructiveness is far short of what is more expected than it.  
Affirm someone will ask: Is the fact so? Can't regard the emotion of mother and 11 mothers Fan of inside back cover as "  The friendship " ? Make a concrete analysis of the original text, have to draw the conclusion, the emotion between them, not already been simple "  The friendship " Can contain. The novel introductory song tells you promptly, " few and gaudy and beautiful, disturb 11 mothers Fan refinedly particularly definitely " ,Scorn to take even a glance at the numerous persons who propose. The whole story that she and inside back cover mother associate to try:  
Time,at yuan section,blue in Meng basin know.  
The place, the temple(Buddhist) (monthly temple of water, " water moon " Image last the meaning one)  .  
Way, inside back cover mother "trend towards step looks of from,last color, it is last speech of having not to like " ; 11 mother " whether happy and kind it, migrate note of looking forward to " too ,Later engaged in a small talk, " adored big " ,Form an alliance, present the keepsake each other, lovesickness after leave    
All these are exactly stipulated situation of the classical gifted scholar and beautiful woman novel and familiar excessive set pattern, even the author's term is so familiar and excessive: 11 mothers " hope on day he comes, Lei is boring " ,Meet on " pleasant surprise, get up at once " ,It is small not "  Support bed compassion to hold "  ,Meet again on " every one is too wide, continuous to sleep "   Just the protagonist is not a gifted scholar and beautiful woman, but it is two women. Only its term of plot is vulgar and excessive, the stronger its result of irony is.  
This kind of " feeling " The unusual,lie in standard because it involve by sexual behavior, and it is have each other regarded as most spirit heavy found sustenance not to lie in. The novel emphasizes the bitterness of joyous and separation that two people get repeatedly, it is obvious congenial, emotion of two people's temperament and interest is deep. On the contrary, no matter 11 mothers or inside back cover mothers Fan all have nothing emotional to man protagonist Meng AnRen. Inside back cover mother end low-spirited to leave away, she so-called " reason look forward beautiful to hold, grow and adore sometimes, such as the callus twines by oneself, then have today "  "feeling evil spirit it rob"  ,Target its Meng, but Fan, the very clear one shows this.  
Novel have two plot can pay attention to particularly, first, inside back cover mother select sons-in-law for Fan voluntarily, as " fox " ,She show supernatural power to make Fan come back to life, send Meng at one's side it only. The love is with exclusive quality, how to explain her behavior? Very simple, the same sex is easy to disappear to hold in the society, Fan's destiny can only be marrying, mother's remarkable ability of the inside back cover is a bit greater and unabler to change this. Will pull it into the abyss of hopeless, shame and agony otherwise. Since it is so, she should arrange the home of the good this world for her. Since women have, depend on man is what is called " the bitterness and happiness of a century by others " ,Select sons-in-law for her, it is the best embodiment of the love to her. Moreover, speaking from the psychology, there is compensation in this measure. One detail that ignore, select son-in-law exactly they meet at the same time, the same place was launched before one year. This has undoubtedly hinted this.  
First, 11 mother and Meng Fan get married, make drunk inside back cover mother let Meng " slip into dirty it " unexpectedly . This move seems very ugly, but this very unwise move happens to her. This one that does not occupy wanting to swell to the husband " able and virtuous " brought definitely is submitted to ,Just the opposite, she have no love to Meng at all times. Though she once committed suicide for him, that was " faithful to husband till death " Feudal thought do mischief(certainly it have psychological by compensation too,Meng to seal arrange for her, she must regard it as the will sealed to obey)  . She is, in order to achieve the goal that and keeps with each other in her feature with sealing working together voluntarily. Her husband, not not only the target who she serves, have become the tool that she achieved the goal instead. Give up it outside this, what ways does she have to keep after marriage with the intimate relation that is sealed? Her " not envying " Seem to accord with the feudal morals very much, it is in fact to the feudal and ethical subversion extremely.